not intentionally avoiding

blogging but ive just had some other daunting issues that took priority. 

some really exciting news is that im going to be selling my jewelry in a shop a few blocks from my house!!!!  im soooooooooo very excited about this.  i constantly have ideas of different ways to make extra money  that one day will make it possible for me to stop working for others and cater to my life and the people around me who mean more to me than some silly paycheck and devoting my precious time just to add funds to someone elses personal financial. so yippeee!  needless to say ive been spending loads of time turning the extra bed into a jewelry workshop space exerting every ounce of creative energy possible on inventory :)

other not so exciting events.

i had a colonoscopy yesterday.  have you ever had one of these?  --- as everyone says its not the procedure but the prep that sucks.. its AWFUL!  this was my 3rd one and instead of getting easier they are getting worse! 

if you're not familiar heres how it works.  2 or 3 days b4 (depending on the doc) you have to start limiting your diet by not eating fiber and such.. nothing to awful.  then the whole day before your procedure you can only eat :  Green or Yellow Jello, Chicken Broth, Hard Candy, Juice (nothing red or purple), popcicles (again only the shit flavors, nothing red or purple) and thats about it.  so ya, your starving the whole day.  the worst part about not being able to eat is that because you cant thats when you really want to and you realize that every single commercial or tv program is about food.  as well as most billboards.  all people want to talk about is eating delicious things and there are so many restaurants everywhere its pointless to leave the house. 

On top of being starving you have to start drinking this nasty sodium something or other drink at like 3 in the afternoon which will completely destroy the rest of your day / night.  it tastes like puke.  if you've never drank  your own puke, get ready to know what that would taste like.  i am gagging right now just thinking about what it tastes like.  so anyhow, you get to drink 8 oz's of this special mix every 15 minutes!!!  and this goes on for 4 hours!  thats assuming you can actually drink it properly according to the directions.  of course i found this impossible and was drinking it for like 8 hours.  eventually after you get enough of this shiz down you will begin to go to the bathroom constant, you feel like you have to go all the time and a good amount of that time you will actually have to go.  your stomach is in knots and howling for food which you cannot give it.

after about midnight you are no longer allowed to drink anything at all.  its very hard to sleep because you need to go to the potty still very often and your stomach is hurting.  you get up and have to get ready to go in for this procedure and all you can think about is food and a drink of water which you cant do either.

then you go in the hospital and they ask you about 5 thousand questions and give you an IV and the whole time all you keep thinking is, can you please give me that yummy medicine that immediately makes me fall asleep so i can wake up and get to eating a steak and some french fries and a chocolate shake maybe some cookies and ice cream mmm, fried chicken sounds good too.

so if you havent been lucky enough to have a colonoscopy yet just start getting excited because at the age of 50 everyone is supposed to be having one!